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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

♥ 7:39 PM

i came, i saw and i conquered

Hahahha it's raining! And today's not a good day :/

This morning in service 158 on the way to school, the bus driver went crazy and he suddenly stopped the bus at one of the stops near the school and checked every dunman high students' ezlink cards. Those that had neoprints and stickers or whatsoever pasted on it was detained and they had to get new cards. Bolong was one of the three people who got caught, and zhikai and i escaped! Pheeew(:

Then during flag-raising, there was a surprise spotcheck for year2 girls, false alarm on Monday. Our class was the first to be checked by luhanlin and we were safe, at least i think we were. It was super comical, looking at people pulling up their socks, pulling down and unfolding their skirts, clipping and tying hair and even correctiontaping the shoes!! Muahah that was the funniest! :D

Later we were supposed to hand in the travel declaration and orientation forms and mr hia got pissed with the class because we were being noisy and not co-operating with him and stuff, though we finallyyy got everything over with. Super bored in the classroom and we taught mrs kumaran (her request) how to play hangman hah! [:

And then, REPORT BOOKS! ): i am verryyyy disappointed with my results. i feel like the black sheep who pulled the whole class down, i mean, although our class, along with 2D and 2G, were the top3 SAP classes, according to mr hia... ((((((((:

My overall percentage for the whole year was 68.6,
Nevertheless, this was 30/36 in the class (black sheep!!).
I am quite sure i'm the last girl in class, though i hope not,
My father's disappointed, like i'm not in myself! :/

Yeps, my father saw my results and he said i had to do something with my science. Science was the only subject that i scored a C, and to think i still wanted triple science. My geography score was higher than history, and to think i still insisted on history! He said that i should improve on weak subjects and maintain stronger subjects.

Most importantly, he wants me to improve my Chinese!
To him, a B3 is not enough to him for my standard! ):

A father's disappointment can be a very powerful tool.
- Michael Bergin

Well, i feel very happy for fiona because she's first in class! There's a change in the first position after these two years! i'm so proud of fiona! :D Hahh but, maybe i should think of myself first..

There are only three conclusions for bad results:
1. This is my limit and i cannot go better than this
2. I knew i could have done better, and this just wasn't my best
3. Why should i care so much about studies?

i think i belong in category 2- i could have done much better!
But oh well, let's just live with this saddening fact.. ):
Hopefully, i will do better next year and prove to my father that
MY SCIENCE IS GOOOOOOD, hopefully(:

My eyes hurt from the cry when my father lectured me,
raindrops are falling on my hand,
my tears are falling like the rain
Oh well, i guess i've stopped crying from just now (:
Sometimes, crying really does help one feel better
But not when the eyes are hurting, hahaHAHHA :D

A child must feel the flush of victory and the heart-sinking of disappointment before he takes with a will to the tasks distasteful to him and resolves to dance his way through a dull routine of textbooks. - Helen Keller